A lot of uncertainty but it’s a step I must take. Should have done this long ago. Letting go, a necessary act of self-preservation, ain’t easy. Am I afraid? Yes, but one thing I know, courage is not the absence of fear.
I am aware that I’m not going to wake up tomorrow and realize that I’m fine and immediately is a brand new life. It’s going to take some time. Slowly but surely, I will start to forget and the pain of the loss will get lesser and lesser as each day goes on. There will come a day when I don’t care and I won’t even notice it, because I will have other more important things to think about.
To let this pain go, I will have to remove ‘it’ from the place of power they have occupied for so long. Everything must go. Perhaps in near future, I will be able to select some memories I want to keep. Life can be just as good, just as beautiful, without ‘it’ in it. Soon, I will no longer care and it feels very much like a small death. No more.